I’m Back

Guess What?
I’m back!

Did you miss me? Hopefully, you do because I learned so much since the last time that I posted on this site. I have done so much since April 2018 and I have to share this with my audience. If you have liked my previous posts or followed my account before, welcome back. If you are new to this site, I suggest that you read this post to know a little bit about myself. Let’s get started.

When I first started this site, it was for a project in my Participatory Media class. Now I decided that now would be a good time to revive the site as a personal freelance writing blog. I kept majority of my original posts because I liked what I wrote. It showcases my writing ability while showing off my personality. Unfortunately, I had to discard a couple of my posts because they were too trashy or too serious for my blog. You live and you learn right. I will be posting more of my own writing more frequently and trying to build my personal brand in the process.

When I first started this site, I was a college senior trying to achieve my Bachelor’s degree in Communications. Now I am a college graduate with a part-time job as Accounts Manager for a hedge fund. This job was not easy to find. I applied to over 100 jobs via Indeed, LinkedIn, Career Shift and more. I went on over 25 job interviews to only be told “No” for whatever reason. I did not give up and eventually I got a job that would start a foundation for my career. Nobody told me it would take seven months to get my first adult job but in those seven months, I learned a lot about myself as well as the world around me. For that I am forever grateful.

When I first started this site, I was a student. Now I am an adult. Most people do not think this difference is drastic but when you have gone to school for 20 years, that is all that you know. It is the only routine you have been accustomed too. When you are done with the school system and left to your own devices, it feels odd. You do not know what to do at first then slowly figure it out as time goes by. I still do not have it all figured out. I am working on it.

Overall, I am excited for 2019. I am looking forward to working at my job. I am excited to advance my career. I am excited to embark on a new journey into freelance writing and hopefully get some career opportunities out of that. I am excited to start this new chapter in my life. Hopefully, it will be a good one.

Faith

Faith. What does that word mean to you? To me, it means you have to believe in yourself. To me, it means that you have to believe that things will work out for the better. To me, it means you have to believe in the magic that this world has to offer. Those three aspects of faith have shaped me into the human that I am today. Faith is a big part of my life. I started believing in faith when I was little and my beliefs have only gotten stronger through the years. I used faith to get through some of the toughest situations life threw at me. Now, I am stronger than ever because I believed that everything would work out in the end and it eventually did. Faith is a hard concept to grasp because it is abstract and complex. Sometimes situations seem like they will never get better but faith always has a way to work its magic.

When I was three years old, I was diagnosed with Autism. The doctors told my parents that I would never be able to speak, go to a regular school system, or be an active member of society. It was a depressing prognosis but my parents and I worked hard to defeat it. At first it was a struggle but slowly but surely my parents and I worked hard to prove those doctors wrong. The thing that helped us accomplish this goal was faith. We had to have faith that things will work out at the end. We had to believe that despite the struggle we had to face, we would rise to the occasion. Faith was the reassurance that we needed when things were looking bad. Faith was the reason why I relearned to speak. Faith is the reason why we preserved through the regular public school systems despite the lack of faith in the Autistic community. Faith is the reason why I am graduating college with a Bachelor of the Arts degree in Communication Studies this coming May. I have learned that faith was my ally but that was not always the case.

When I was in elementary school, I would have patterns. If you do not know what those are, they were basically an exact schedule of how I was going to go about my day. I would create this schedule around the clock. I would have to abide by my schedule or else I would have a meltdown. These patterns caused a lot of stress on myself and my parents. My parents even bought black electrical tape to tape over all the electrical clocks in the house. Eventually, my parents had to wean me off my patterns by telling me that everything was going to be okay if I put on my pajamas at 8:30pm instead of 8pm or if I ate dinner at 7pm instead of 6pm. Autistic people like to have a set plan for everything that happens in their life in order to make sense of the world. Eventually it worked because I knew that my life could not be tied down to a clock. That faith would step in and life would be okay if I had my dinner at 7pm instead of 6pm. I had to learn how to trust the process which is not an easy thing to do espiecally for an Autistic person.

Faith is defined as the complete trust or confidence in someone or something. I need to have the confidence that my life will be fulfilling without relying on strict schedule or patterns to accomplish it. I need to trust the process in order to have a fulfilling life. If I do not trust the process, I will miss out on significant opportunities. Faith has taught me that things will be okay even if they do not work out the way I want them too. It has helped my family come to terms with my Autism. It has helped me prove everybody who doubted me wrong. It helped me become the women that I am today. Faith is the backbone to my being.

Love Poems-A Collection

#1- In the Air
Romance was in the air
Butterflies were in my stomach
The wind blowing in his hair
My feelings were atomic

Butterflies were in my stomach
As he took my hand
My feelings were atomic
Our toes in the sand

As he took my hand
My heart fluttered like a dove
Our toes in the sand
I was starting to fall in love

My heart fluttered like a dove
We started to kiss
I was starting to fall in love
It was a moment that I did not want to miss

We started to kiss
Romance was in the air
It was a moment that I did not want to miss
The wind blowing in his hair

#2-Forbidden
There was a boy
His name was Troy
I was awestruck
Then we started to fuck

He touch made me feel alive
A part of my mind was revived
He was electrifying
This thought was terrifying

This love had to be hidden
For it was forbidden
The family hatred was strong
So we had to play along

I thought this was true love
His presence made my heart flutter like a dove
I thought he was the one
Until he said we were done

My heart broke into two
I did not know what to do
He stood there silent
I was about to get violent

I punched him in the face
He put me in my place
I was shocked
My world was rocked

He pulled out a gun
It was pointed his head
Bang! Bang!
He was dead

#3-On this Starry Night
The warm, summer air blew on my skin
I took a swig from the bottle of gin
The sky was covered in lights
On this starry night

I danced with him on the grass
Then I fell on my ass
He lifted me up with all his might
On this starry night

He kissed me on the lips
That were covered in chips
He was twice my height
On this starry night

The music started to get too loud
So we ran off from the crowd
There was nobody in sight
On this starry night

He put himself inside me
I felt passion and glee
He said I was tight
On this starry night

Turns out everyone were stalkers
Majority were also gawkers
I ran and took flight
On this starry night

It was 3 a.m.
I did not want to fun to end
He had to say goodbye
Om this starry night

#4-Broken
My first love broke me
I need repair
From the damage everyone could see
From the despair

I need repair
His words cut into me like a knife
From the despair
And the strife

His words cut into my like a knife
There is nothing there
And the strife
Is too hard to bare

There is nothing there
I’m ripping at the seams
Is too hard to bare
So I look at memes

I’m ripping at the seams
My first love broke me
So I look at memes
From the damage everyone can see

Asteroids, Meteors, and Fossils….Oh My

Boom! I jolted out of bed. I had just heard that loudest crash of my life. Did somebody get shot? Did a bomb go off? I thought I was just imagining until I saw fragments of hot, red lava outside my window. It couldn’t be, is it? I jumped out of bed, ran outside, and saw an event that I thought I would never see in my lifetime. An asteroid and a meteoroid collided near Earth. The remains are the collision are raining down on the planet surface causing havoc amongst the townspeople. It finally happened. The long awaited crash between an asteroid and a meteor. I wanted to say that I was surprised but I saw this coming from a mile away.

This was a news story for a while. Everybody just brushed it off except me. I knew that this crash was bound to happen. I put warning flyers around town, gave guest lectures at the local community college, and even created my own YouTube channel discussing my theories on this crash. Turns out, I was right. As everyone else was scrambling for cover, I simply went downstairs to my manmade shelter. This shelter was made from a rare form of metal that can protect citizens from any dangerous space objects such as the remains of an asteroid/meteor crash. I thought of helping my neighbors but I decided to say “fuck it” and go in myself.

When I woke up, the next day I heard no noise. No cars beeping, no neighbors talking, no birds chirping just silence. I walked outside and it was like somebody just gutted my entire neighborhood. It was nothing but a foreign wasteland. I started digging around that wasteland. All of the sudden, I discovered something. It was a fossil but not just any ordinary fossil. It was a fossil from a different planet. I quickly went to my manmade shelter to study this mysterious fossil. I discovered that this fossil was from the planet Mars. It was a fossil that looked like it could be from a foot of a horse or a dog. I could not tell what animal it was from. All I knew is that I was going to Mars.

My manmade shelter contained a jet pack that could send me to outer space at any time. After the collision, I concluded that it was a good idea to go to space. I set my engines, took off into space, and landed on mars. When I got there, I was greeted with a nice drift a red sand. I stepped outside my shuttle and saw yet another barbaric wasteland. I took my fossil and walked around the planet for a bit. All of the sudden, I found something peculiar. The giant footprint in front of me was the same footprint that was on the fossil that I found earlier. I quickly realized that the footprints formed a trail. I decided to follow that trial to see where it would take me. The results were shocking to say the least.

When I researched the end of this little trail, I thought what could this be. All of the sudden, I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and I shit you not a real live alien was standing behind me. I was floored. He motioned me to follow him so I did. He stopped suddenly, took my hand, and showed me an alien village. I could not believe my eyes. I always though aliens were a sham until now. They were nothing but welcoming, kind-hearted creatures. I was so bashful that I kept looking at the ground the entire time they were talking to me. That is when I discovered that the footprints on the ground were the alien’s footprints. The same one that matched my fossil earlier. The fossil was proof that life existed on other planets.

It was that moment that I decided to move to Mars for good. For the first time in a long time, I felt respected. When I lived on Earth, no one would take me seriously. Every thought my warnings on the collision were a joke until it actually happened. Now, I have friends who listen, care, and want to know about my knowledge of space. I am so glad that I found this fossil because this fossil found me a bunch of new friends that I will never let go!

 

The Golden Nugget

        It was a warm spring day. I decided to utilize this beautiful day by spending it outside and planting fresh roses in my garden. As I was planting these roses, I felt an unusual bump. I decided that it was just a rock and continued to plant the roses. All of the sudden, I see this bright, shining light come up from under the soil. I decided to go check it out. I dug into the soil where the light was shining through and realized that it was a golden nugget. A golden nugget that was the size of my fist. My heart leaped out of its chest. I have heard about the golden nugget in books, magazines, movies, television, and everywhere else. This golden nugget was supposed to bring me unimaginable levels of wealth. I was skeptical about it so I picked up the golden nugget and went inside. I placed the golden nugget onto my coffee table and turned on the news.

“The search for the golden nugget is still underway”

“Yes, the nugget is said to be in the tristate area”

“What are the golden nugget’s magical powers, Susan?”

“Well, the golden nugget is the richest item in the world worth two billion dollars. If somebody finds it, they are officially the richest person in the world.”

          I sat there frozen. I glanced over at the golden nugget. It was shining right back at me. This can’t be real I thought. I looked over again and the same golden nugget that was being portrayed on the news was on my coffee table. I leaped out of my seat, took the golden nugget, and ran to my local convenience store. When I got there, I quickly ran up to the boy at the cash register.

“LOOK IT IS THE GOLDEN NUGGET,” I shouted

         The boy looked once and passed out. I stood there for a minute till the manager came out. The manager stood there in shock. He took the golden nugget from me and held it up.

I am in disbelief. It is the actual golden nugget. The one everybody talks about in the movies. I’ll cash this baby up right away!!”

Soon enough, everyone knew that I won the golden nugget. I was on the front pages of all the magazines, my face was on the news every night, and I was accounting more wealth then I could imagine. I moved out of my old house into a giant mansion. I brought five fancy sports cars, a backyard waterpark, a concert venue, a five-star restaurant as my kitchen, all these designer clothes, and much more. I quit my job. I threw wild parties every day and night. I gained all these new friends. I lead a life of fame and fortune. I was on top of the world but that soon came to a screeching halt.

To my and everyone else’s surprise the golden nugget only gave you wealth for a certain amount of time. Six months to be exact. As soon as the six months ended, the wealth that was earned would be taken away. I learned this the hard way when the two billion dollars I got from the golden nugget disappeared overnight. Everything I had slowly disappeared. I had to sell everything; the mansion, the waterpark, the concert venue, restaurant, the clothes, and everything else that I bought. I lost all my friends. My fame was dwindling to nothing. The guy who cured cancer stole my spotlight. I was just another piece of history that was not getting revived any day soon.

I had to start from the ground up. I moved back into my old house. I worked at the local flower shop for minimum wage. I restarted my garden and planted a whole new batch of roses. I looked through the soil beforehand just in case I saw a golden nugget. No such luck was found. I am glad the golden nugget came into my life. Why? Because I realized that life is about quality not quantity. You do not need to be super wealthy to have a fulfilling life. You just need a few good friends, a roof over your head, and some nice roses to smell in your garden.