War is Ugly

War is ugly. I believe this to be true because it brings nothing good to the table. The only things war brings are senseless killings, destroyed countries, and the draining of federal money. So much time, energy, and money is wasted on the war effort and this does not just apply to our country. It applies to all countries that choose to engage in war over salacious things. Call me a pacifist but I do not believe that violence is the answer. There are plenty of other ways to solve conflict other than going to war.

I firmly believe that killing innocent people is wrong. Unfortunately that’s what happens when war is involved. The only people that should be killed are terrorists and extremely abusive dictators. Other than that nobody else deserves to die espiecally not the innocent adults and children in the Middle East. Countries like Iraq, Iran, Syria, and many more used to be beautiful tourist attractions. Now they are barbaric wastelands as they are greeted with bombs, missiles, and other weapons almost every day. I have seen too many videos with dead children hiding underneath a bunch of rubble or soldiers riding tanks and firing guns in Middle Eastern communities where innocent people integrate. These people did not deserve to die under such awful circumstances. All human lives are scared. To act in any way that causes that death of others is immoral.

War does not resolve problems. It only creates bigger problems. War is like making a mountain out of a mole hill. We cannot achieve any political, religious, or social goal when we get involved in war. Instead of helping the human race, we risk losing the human race. The immense amount of causalities that are direct results of war alone is a reason why I am anti-war. Now with the possibly of  nuclear weapons being involved, nobody is truly safe. We have seen the power these nuclear weapons possess in Hiroshima and Nagasaki. To think, that these weapons could be hidden somewhere and put into use at any moment scares me. The thing that scare me the most is people like our POS president and Kim Jon-Un have the power to set these off at any time. This possibly should make anybody uneasy.

America is a great country but we do have a lots of flaws. One of them is spending too much money on the war effort. Unfortunately, we have to spend money on the war effort but in my opinion, we spend too much money funding something that will ultimately destroy us in the end. We need to spend money the problems here first. Money that is being spent on the war effort could be spent on improving our school systems espiecally ones in low-income areas. It could be spent feeding the hungry or giving a shelter to the homeless. It could be spent fixing our gun laws, finding a way to cure cancer, improving our welfare programs or literally anything else to help improve the quality of life in our country. Over $2.4 trillion was spent on the Iraq war alone. Imagine if that money was spent on improving the quality of life in our country. America would be in a much better position.

Although war is immoral, I can think of two positive things about war. One positive thing that wars bring is patriotism to our country. We become united as one when we are up against another country. Another positive thing is that we know we have people to defend us when we are in trouble. These military personal dedicate their lives fighting for our country and I respect their patriotism and dedication to our country. However, I cannot respect the fact that they kill innocent people under the guise of fighting for our country. Fighting for our country should not result into destruction for another country. That is why I will never serve my country. I love being an American but I will not contribute my time and effort to anything that is related to violence.

Instead of going to war, we should try to resolve our conflicts by having meetings with the United Nations, having nonviolent protests, creating peace treaties and any other nonviolent solutions that will make our world a better place. We need to enact these solutions as soon as possible because wars have caused too much destruction in our nation as well as in other nations. I would love to see World Peace in my lifetime but until that day comes we need to fight for change to stop any wars from happening again. I am anti-war and I am damn proud of it.

The Golden Nugget

Disclaimer: this story is fiction

            It was a warm spring day. I decided to utilize this beautiful day by spending it outside and planting fresh roses in my garden. As I was planting these roses, I felt an unusual bump. I decided that it was just a rock and continued to plant the roses. All of the sudden, I see this bright, shining light come up from under the soil. I decided to go check it out. I dug into the soil where the light was shining through and realized that it was a golden nugget. A golden nugget that size of my fist. My heart leaped out of its chest. I have heard about the golden nugget in books, magazines, movies, television, and everywhere else. This golden nugget was supposed to bring me unimaginable levels of wealth. I was skeptical about it so I picked up the golden nugget and went inside. I placed the golden nugget onto my coffee table and turned  on the news.

“The search for the golden nugget is still underway”

“Yes, the nugget is said to be in the tristate area”

“What are the golden nugget’s magical powers, Susan?”

“Well, the golden nugget is the richest item in the world worth two billion dollars. If somebody finds it, they are officially the richest person in the world.”

            I sat there frozen. I glanced over at the golden nugget. It was still shining as ever. This can’t be real I thought. I looked over again and the same golden nugget that was being portrayed on the news was on my coffee table. I leaped out of my seat, took the golden nugget, and ran to my local convenience store. When I got there, I quickly ran up to the boy at the cash register.


            The boy looked once and passed out. I stood there for a minute till the manager came out. The manager stood there in shock. He took the golden nugget from me and held it up.

“I am in disbelief. It is the actual golden nugget. The one everybody talks about in the movies. I’ll cash this baby up right away!!”

Soon enough, everyone knew that I won the golden nugget. I was on the front pages of all the magazines, my face was on the news every night, and I was accounting more wealth then I could imagine. I moved out of my old house into a giant mansion. I brought five fancy sports cars, a backyard waterpark, a concert venue, a 5-star restaurant as my kitchen, all these designer clothes, and much more. I quit my job. I threw wild parties every day and night. I gained all these new friends. I lead a life of fame and fortune. I was on top of the world. But that soon came to a screeching halt.

To my and everyone else’s surprise the golden nugget only gave you wealth for a certain amount of time. Six months to be exact. As soon as the six months ended, the wealth that you earned would be taken away from you. I learned this the hard way when the two billion dollars I got from the golden nugget disappeared overnight. Everything I had slowly disappeared. I had to sell everything; the mansion, the waterpark, the concert venue, restaurant, the clothes, and everything else that I bought. I lost all my friends. My fame was dwindling to nothing. The guy who cured cancer stole my spotlight. I was just another piece of history that was not getting revived any day soon.

I had to start from the ground up. I moved back into my old house. I worked at the local flower shop for minimum wage. I restarted my garden and planted a whole new batch of roses. I looked through the soil beforehand just in case I saw a golden nugget. No such luck was found. I am glad the golden nugget came into my life. Why? Because I realized that life is about quality not quantity. You do not need to be super wealthy to have a fulfilling life. You just need a few good friends, a roof over your head, and some nice roses to smell in your garden.


Double-Voiced Narratives

Just a Girl-No Doubt
Songwriters: Gwen Stefani and Thomas Dumont

Take this pink ribbon off my eyes
I’m exposed
And it’s no big surprise
Oh no! It a girl! What do we do!!!!
Don’t you think I know
Exactly where I stand
This world is forcing me
To hold your hand
Just because I am girl does not mean I need to hold somebody’s (particularly a male) hand. Just because I am a girl does not mean I need be attached to someone else in order to live my life.
Cause I’m just a girl, little ol’ me
Well don’t let me out of your sight
Oh, I’m just a girl, all pretty and petite
So don’t let me have any rights
Oh. I’ve had it up to here!
Women have always been viewed as secondary to men. We get paid less, treated like objects, and have to fit the perfect stereotype. If we don’t do these things, we get chastised.
The moment that I step outside
So many reasons
For me to run and hide
This makes me think of the #metoo movement. Girls are viewed a sexual objects and are prone to sexual assault at a young age.
I can’t do the little things
I hold so deer
Cause it’s all those little things
That I fear
I would love to do more things but I am too afraid to do those things in fear of judgement and ridicule
Cause I’m just a girl
I’d rather not be
Cause they won’t let me drive
Late at night
Parents are more protective of girls than boys. They set more rules on girls espiecally when it comes late night activities. When I was younger, I often had a curfew and strict rules of what I could and could not do.
Oh I’m just a girl
Guess I’m some kind of freak
Cause they all sit and stare
With their eyes
This relates more with my disability. I often get looks because I act differently then everybody or everyone knows that I have a disability so they look and laugh at my existence.
Oh I’m just a girl
Take a good look at me
Just your typical prototype
Oh, I’ve had it up to here!
I have had it up to here with the amount of bullshit that I have had to deal with in my life.
Oh, am I making myself clear?
I’m just a girl
I’m just a girl in the world
That’s all that you’ll let me be!
I want to be more than just a face in the crowd. I want to be successful. I want to make a name for myself. I want to prove that my gender does not define my success.
Oh I’m just a girl, living in captivity
Your rule of thumb
Make me worry some
I am worried about what other people think. I am worried about the most minuscule things because I want to fit in. Truth is, I can’t.
Oh I’m just a girl, what’s my destiny?
What I’ve succumbed to
Is making me numb
When you are a girl, sometimes it’s hard to succumb to the sexism around you. You want to stand up but do not know how. I felt this way for a long time.
Oh I’m just a girl, my apologies
What I’ve become is so burdensome
Oh I’m just a girl, lucky me
Twiddle-dum there’s no comparison
Don’t get me wrong here I love being a girl. It’s just that it can get rough sometimes.
Oh, I’ve had it up to!
Oh, I’ve had it up to!!
Oh, I’ve had it up to here
I love the protest at the end. It just goes to show that we will not be silenced. We will not play second fiddle and we will certainly not be mistreated.

I Wish

I wish I did not feel so lost

I wish I did not receive flashbacks

I wish this did not happen every day

I wish someone would hear me out

I wish somebody truly understood me

I wish people did not treat me as a charity case

I wish people would treat me as an equal

I wish I knew what was causing this

I wish I did not have so much internalized anger

I wish I was not so misunderstood

I wish I could find someone who is similar to me

I wish people would understand that I was bullied in school

I wish people would understand that bullying is everywhere

I wish my feelings would be validated in this society

I wish people with disabilities were mainstreamed

I wish people would respect me

I wish discrimination did not exist

I wish for equality

It’s not my disability, it is the stigma surrounding my disability

Writing helps me get through it





This is poem that I written last year about my disability I hope you like it:

I have Autism.
The stigma is terrifying.
Struggling with society’s Ableism.
Lord knows I am trying.

The stigma is terrifying.
I know my capability.
Lord knows I am trying.
To live with my disability.

I know my capability.
Being constantly excluded.
To live with my disability
While the world is still deluded.

Being constantly excluded.
I know I have to stay strong.
While the world is still deluded.
And my approach is wrong.

I know I have to stay strong.
I have Autism.
And my approach is wrong.
Struggling with society’s Ableism.